NOTHING 2 POST.........................STUPID POST.......................IM HAPPY??? IM SAD...........=="""

MY MUM!!!!! go hear it....eminem

My mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I am like I am cause I'm like her.
Because my mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I'm on what I'm on cause I'm my mom.

"My mom, my mom" --I know you're probably
tired of hearing 'bout my mom oh-ho whoa-oh,
but this is just a story of when I was just a shorty
and how I became hooked on Va-al-iu-um.
Valium was in everything: food that I ate,
the water that I drank, fuckin' peas on my plate.
She sprinkled just enough of it to season my steak
so everyday I'd have at least three stomach aches.
Now tell me what kinda mother would wanna see her
son grow up to be an under-a-fucking-chiever?
My teacher didn't think I was gonna be nothin', either:
"What the fuck you sticking gum up under the fucking seat for?"
"Mrs. Mathers, your son has been huffin' ether.
Either that or the motherfuckers been puffin' reefer."
But all of this huffin' and puffin' wasn't what it was, either.
It was neither. I was buzzin', but it wasn't what she thought.
Pee in a tea cup? Bitch, you ain't my keeper. I'm sleepin';
What the fuck you keep on fuckin' with me for?
Slut, you need to leave me the fuck alone; I ain't playing.
Go find you a white crayon and color a fucking zebra.

My mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I am like I am cause I'm like her.
Because my mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I'm on what I'm on cause I'm my mom.

Wait a minute! This ain't dinner, this is paint thinner!
"You ate it yesterday; I ain't hear no complaints, did I?"
"Now here's a plate full of pain killers.
Now just wait 'til I crush the Valium and put it in your potatoes.
Ya little motherfucker i'll make ya sit there and make
that retarded fuckin' face without even tastin' it!"
"You better lick the fuckin', plate; you ain't wastin' it.
Put your face in it before I throw you in the basement again!
And I ain't givin' in. You're gonna' just sit there in one fuckin' place finnickin'
till next Thanksgiving, and if you still ain't finished it,
I'll use the same shit again, then when I make spinach dip, it'll be placed in the shit!
You little shit, wanna' sit there and play innocent?
A rat fell and hit me in K-Mart, and they witnessed it!
Child support? Your father, he ain't sent the shit!
and so what if he did? It's none of your dang business, kid!"

My mom, there's no one else quite like my mom.
I know I should let bygones be bygones,
but she's the reason why I am high on what I'm high on

becuz my mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I am like I am cause I'm like her.
Because my mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I'm on what I'm on cause I'm my mom.

My mom loved Valium. Now, what I am is a party animal.
I am what I am, but I'm strong to the finish wit' me Valium spinach.
But my bars only last about two minutes!
But I don't want to swallow it without chewin' it.
I can't even write a rhyme without you in it, my Valium, my Val-i-um. Oh!

Man, I never thought that I could ever be a drug addict.
naw, fuck that, I can't have it happen to me!" but that's actually
what has ended up happenin' in a tragedy fuckin' past end it up catchin' me
And that's probably where I got acquainted with the taste, ain't it?
Pharmaceuticals are the bomb, Ma! Beautiful!
She killed the fuckin' dog with the medicine she done fed it.
Feed it a fuckin' aspirin and say that it has a headache.
"Here, want a snack? You hungry, you fuckin' brat?
Look at that! It's a Xanax! Take it and take a nap! Eat it!"
But I don't need it!
"Well fuck it, then break it up!
Take a little piece and beat it before you wake Nathan up!"
Alright, Ma, you win! I don't feel like arguin'!
I'll do it pop it and gobble it and start wobblin',
stumble, hobble, tumble, slip, trip, then I fall in bed
with a bottle of meds and a Heath Ledger bobble head!

My mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I am like I am cause I'm like her.
Because my mom loved Valium and lots of drugs.
That's why I'm on what I'm on cause I'm my mom.

My mom, I'm just like her!

My mom, my mom, my mom
My mom, my mama
[in an Eric Cartman voice:] My mama, I ain't takin' this no more.

Heh, sorry mom! I sill love you, though! [kiss sound]

Oh! xDDDD!!!

Am i going 2 end my life???

Im going thru a hard time now....my life is like....getting worst n worst n worst..sucks!!!...im doing everything 2 change....change 2 a better person but why cnt u all see it...is it so hard!!!....those my life means nothing 2 u all??I oso have feelings like u all do...if i suicide rite now...i think i feel better 2 myself...no im not kidding...but if i do dat...i think im stupid n foolish...i tried so hard n got so far i pushed myself over my limit but its just a waste of time...dispite the way of controling me....look down on me....im not rubbish...u all are juz saying ur treating me like a son???? wtf!!!.....i become in diz because of u all....yaeh..i know u all said...'every step i take is a mistake 2 u all'....im tired...im tired of all this...maybe its true i have a lower life...gods will...cant do nothing bout it....i feel like throwing myself in a lonely place...no1 bother me...juz sitting there alone....stress free...nothing 2 wori...ahhh...if dat happen...is gonna be d happiest day of my life!!!.........im so down rite now...i have no1 to turn 2.....but myself. no1 is here 4 me now.....aya!!!! i go die la!!!...........=="" jk....

SOUTHPARK!!!SIMPSONS!!!!xDDD nice!!!

WAAAHH!!!just bought 'southpark' d series...haha..very funi d...damn funi o infact!!!! i love them so much o...haha..christmas present u guys buy give me la..xPPPP...x la..jkjk...anywaaaaay....i spent the whole 2 weeks trying 2 think wat 2 buy for my darling..XD...haih...so hard oooo...going here going there...see diz see dat...diz nice but x neo she lyk ont???...dat not nice myb she lyk??...OMG...im trying 2 think bck wat she lyks...even when im sleeping =="...but stil cnt think wat she needs...hmmm...sakit kepala o think dao...i rmb she lyks surprises...BUT..i duno if she cn be wif me ont dat day...myb cnt la...Christmas man!! let her spent some time wif her family..i'l find time 2 take her b4 christmas..myb she cnt d..aiya duno O!!!..ahhhhhhhh...so hard o...so hard 2 plan...N she duno know anythig bout diz..^^..watever...if she neo i wanna buy!!..o likadai lohhhh!!..she'll say no nid la~..buy 4 wat~...i want nothing~...watse ur money on me~' o sumthig lyk dat..==...then she goes' i say i want nothing~!!! dun buy~!!!' o watever...then continue blah blah blah..==..at the end comfrim she'l say" is true mah~~......its a fact~~~....*by the way...thats her favourite word*....then continue blah blah blah n say say say macam ah po..== very fake d her...if she want d...she dun tell d...diam diam oni~~macam ah po kn?? but i know she wants d...hahaha~~my ah po mah..not yours...uinahhh~~but thx anyway for u guys accompanying me d last 2 weeks...hahaha...i dun hope she 'gan dong' o anything..i juz wanna see a smile on her face...I KNOW ITS LAME O WATEVER U PIPS CALL~...=="""......haihh nvm...as longs shes happy i'll do it...phewwww~ hard~... i still duno wat 2 buy...time is running out....HELP ME!!!...==""""...anywaaaaaaaaaay...she duno anything bout wat im going 2 do....soooo diam diam....dun spoil it....XDDDDDD....hahaha nvm....wish u all a merry merry christmas....aiyo....wish u guys earlier mah....hehehe...wish u all hapiiiiii o............watever!!!! ya i noe i owez sy 'watever'...==:":

Im sorry i was not there....T.T

Hiyoo!!! Diz few days sakit kepala...^^...anyway dun care bout dat...==" anyway....
im so guilty of not spending my time for u...n the thing is i promise u that i will...im trying my fucking bez to find time 4 u...cuz i lost my hp*shit*n i dont hav enuf money 2 buy 1...cuz i spent it in sumthing stupid...*ya i neo im not dat gud as a person u cn love*....nw im gonna buy 1..reguardless of wat kind of model...as long dat hp cn use o watever..cuz i hate lending hp from ppl....><.....ya i neo u miz me but u dun belif im missing u...imagine...when it's rains try 2 catch the raindrops in ur hand as though how much you miss sum1,but those that u lose hold of,is hw im missing u....im sori i was not there when ur alone...im sori for not being there whn u need me...im sori for not being there when u need 2 tok...im sori 4 everything...im sori...even whn u say nevermind...theres sumthing in ur heart u mind....haihhh....ppl has been treating u bad ur whole life...im trying 2 make it rite...u rili deserve 2 be treated gud...n im doin it baby gurl...even my life is bad...i put u 1st in my heart...i'l settle everything in ur life before mine n i maen it!!!!!!....i'll make it better 4 u 2 live on...i neo u've been hurt alot of times by those in ur life...but its ok..life is like dat...there bitter there are sweet times...i neo ur life...even tough u havent tell me all yet...i neo...im jz kipping quiet...*hehehe u duno leh hahaha*....if hav 1 wish given by god...dat wish is to let u live a perfact life then any1...no more wat ur having now...a hapi ever after life...even without me even when im gone o die o old o watever!!...dat wish remains...i want u to be ur happiest all the time...im doing everything 4 u...im pushing myself 4 u...doing things i never did 4 a gurl...bcuz of 1 word..n dat word only...becuz i love u...yes its simple but it means alot...its from my heart...everything is 4 u...i'll give u anything u want...even when u say u want nothing n put on smile face...i neo u want sumthing...im gona be the 1 who u cn trust, the 1 u cn love wif all ur heart,the 1 hu u cn fight wif,the 1 hu u cn show ur temper,the 1 hu will be there 4 u,the 1 hu u cn hug tightly wif no worries.......but i dun have the chance 2 do that....cuz im not there...even if im there o not there...i want u do ur part...cuz im gona break my habit for the last time...uinanh...^^'......I LOVE U....DAMN GURL!! DONT U UNDERSTAND....I LOVE U.....xpppppDDDDDDDD

i got a feeling....^^

Man......feel kinda weird these days...haha..CACAT!!!!...xD
Hmmm....last night went to wedding dinner...ehh it was oook...haha...saw dao my ex n some other frens...wow she change alot ohh!! becum more liang moi oooo!!! i nearly cnt recognize her..haha..n sum of them change oso...to ass...haha...she just said 'hi n blahblahblah'...hahaha..^^'....watch 2 movies in 1 day...kick leh~...but no my baobao 2 pei me haihhhh...sad soul...^^....haha

walaneh!!!!...wah 1st time in history i dun wanna go out....dunno wat hapen????hmmm.....i felt so hapi n excited 2day but x neo of wat???? after d church...i felt so angry!!! i oso x neo y???sot2 d me...xD.....whole damn day im at hum...doing ntg...dat nvm....bt i had 2 c thos fuck faces im wif...''if thos who r close 2 me u guys neo wat im talking about"'..haih...tok tok tok lyk dogs!!!! diz cnt dat cnt...do diz do dat..blah blah blah...i duno how i pushed myself diz far...hmmh my bao2 stil dun understand o neo my real life yet...so shusss!! so damn confuse of my life rite now...duno wat 2 do wif my life rite nw....hu cn hlp me now...T^T....*if u sy god...whr is he is nw whn i rili nid hm...no1 was here 4 me 'EVER'...* i asked myself n 'god' many times...why m i here in diz world if im suffering.....Y dats d big question...now oni i realize im complaining....hahahah pai sah ah..hahha...nvm...i rather doing things dat im hapi rather then thngs dat makes me piss off o fucked up....hahhaah...damn im starting 2 love blogging...hahaha...anywaaaaaay...gud day...if u think im stil a noobi....i 4gv u...hahhaah...hope no1 sees diz...no where 4 me 2 express liao bha...liao jie me bha...hahaha xD...nvm i stil 4gv u....xP im starting 2 think dat im gay....HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

1st time blogging

hmmm...duno what to blog oh....so sorry...1st time bh..hiiiye.....haha...haih...so sien o today..i mean like wowwww!!! wanna die liao n my 'family' was out....gooood!! nobody kacau me...OMG!!!my hp man...so 'fan' if dun hav hp.....damn d bh...anyway i jz wanna blog abit oni.....n teach me ehhh i duno hw to diz kind of things d....i dun usually do diz kinda stuff.. x fancy it...nvm im learning...yala i neo i noobi...i 4gv u.....xDDDD